This more of a case is it real or am i being stringed along so i'll give you the entire story and you can judge for yourself on what you think her intentions are, sorry if i waffle on :S
Im a 15 year old guy, i met this girl on a school trip she is one of my good friends ( a girl ) sister. She was 16 when i met her in february but has recently turned 17 on tuesday. We talked for about 7 days after we met as friends but with a flirty tone attached and then we went out, for 2 weeks but after this she ' dumped ' me saying that the age difference was always on her mind and she felt it was th ebest but she still wanted to keep talking to me. I was quite calm and collective ( on the inside quite very upset about it all ) but she commented many a time how i have been the nicest and most perfect boy ever in the past her relationships the ex's have discarded her from friendship etc. So for about 3 weeks now we have been apart and for the first 1 and a half it was on thin ice us talking. BTW i forgot to mention earlier after she dumped me we cuddled on her bed and ended up kissing about 100 times that evening before i went she said she loved me. Last weekend we talked a lot by text and phone and things were like the first week i knew her, however i upset her sister quite badly and she was resentful... a lot, however through various means i was succesful at apoligising to her sister. There is no doubt i love her in all this its just if she does to me, on her birthday i felt as if she avoided me all day at school hence i didnt see her, but after school i decided to do a final try and make things work between us. She lives 7 miles away and there is no way to get there without car, i had no car so i ran there as fast as i could ( 1 hour 20 mins ) and got there 6 mins before she left for her dinner with family and gave her, her present and sorry letter which read
Dear Emma
I am writing this letter because it is impossible for me to say how I feel about you to your face. But on paper, everything just seems to make sense. I can tell you how I feel about you, and more importantly apologize to you for what happened.
Emma, when we first met in Bulgaria, my heart not only skipped one beat, it skipped two. You are the most beautiful person I have ever seen. I used to have dreams of walking along the beach in the sunset with a girl who was perfect in every way, inside and out. I always thought she was just a dream, until I met you, and realized that it was you I had been dreaming about all along.
I stayed up one night and sat under the stars. I played a little game matching each star to a reason why I love you, but then I ran out of stars. I want to tell you all of them, but there isn't enough paper in the world to write everything. I like the way that you light the skies above me. Your smile is a curve that sets everything straight. Your eyes are so bright, the brightest of all colours and unlike any other. I love your fashion sense, everything you wear is so pretty, especially your blue hoody! I adore your personality, and how caring you are in everything you do. I could stroke your hair forever, so soft and lush. I like how you are always the theme of my dreams, and in my nightmares you are the one who comforts me and tells me everything is alright. I envy your intelligence, you are so clever and I know you will do anything you set your mind on. A Nobel Prize winner for sure. I like the way we love the same things. I love the way I could talk to you for eternity and still have more to talk about. You are my princess, and every time we touched it was a fairy tale.
It is so hard to tell your mind to stop loving someone, when your heart refuses to. Trying to forget someone you love is like trying to remember someone you never knew.
Everything about you is so perfect, and everything that happened was my fault. I am so lucky to have you. I can鈥檛 tell you how sorry I am for the things I have done to you and the pain I have caused. I never used to think about the consequences my actions held and never used to ratiocinate anything. But from now on that鈥檚 all I will do. I feel like an idiot, in fact I am an idiot no doubt about it. I have inflicted so much pain and grief to you when in the past you have been so kind and loving to me. But I don鈥檛 think you realise how much I appreciate just knowing of you and without you beside me I would dread every day. You鈥檝e given me so much, like no other soul has. And no one can take your place in my heart. You deserve happiness Emma, you are a wonderful person. Again, I鈥檓 so sorry.
Daniel
anyway she was grateful and quite happy before she had to go she hugged me really tightly and said she never wanted to let go. she said i had made her birthday perfect and nothing would ever match this in pefectness and that she loved me. Which did give me some hope, however now moving on slightly from that time I find that she is relatively intersested I mean she doesn鈥檛 have the same happineDoes she love me ?? Relationship advice?
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It sounds like she isn't sure about her feelings and she is confused. In my experience, the best thing to do is act like it doesn't matter. I don't mean be cold and act like you don't know her, just act like its cool, that you're still friends and you're there for her. If its meant to be, in due time it will.
You are truly a romantic guy and I think that if Emma doesn't see you this way then she is a fool. I can't tell you what is on a woman's mind as so many factors come into play. All I know from your writing is that no person has ever written to me like you have written to her. I envy Emma, your letter was so beautiful it had my heart singing...
I don't know what you have done to cause her grief but God knows, you keep up with your romantic ideas of the idela woman and she will come to you. What woman could resist your tender words! You are precious and have instilled in me some faith that there are people in the world who still believe in romance!
she hates you go kill yourself and your whole family, then she will find out how much she misses you
YOU ARE ONLY FIFTEEN, seiously and your life is like some drama serial -.- anyway, don't be too pushy, and being overly ';romantic'; might freak her out. just go back to treating her like a normal friend and see how it goes from there
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